hahaha

flirt.

what do u think?

hahaha..i knoe everybody does it... whether u are with somebody or not...

hahaha..

it takes courage and bravery to admit..

who admits ?

tell me?!

aku angkat ketiak! slalu berangan utk flirt..tp aku xhot. so, nobody cares if i flirt.kan?


demmit!

-diary bitch sy!-

ikan itu tak sedap

yellow everybodi...

let me start blah2 about my day...

start with giving up with no hot water in shower.it is FREAKING cold. cold yg mcm sakit tulang temulang aku okay... so sbnarnya 2 hari aku tak mandi.yehaaaaaa..lantak..tp aku gigih gak la coci part2 yg perlu... hehehe.. dont worry. i am not that dirty u knoe... so finally aku msg lanlord early (5am) in the morning and start blah2...

and tau x, what a nice and quite handsome guy he is, he replied me back and even call me to make sure i am alright..sbb dia pon tau cuaca sejuk.gilo ke apa xdak ayaq panas and the heater doesnt work jgk. mati aku bwah selimut.sobs. dia even called the supplier of the gas and electricity and gave them good complain.. ngiahahaha.. gempaks x?

so anyway, being a responsible tenant, aku try figure out company mana supplier and give them a call on why the hell u guys dont mail me about u are the supplier. standard process kat sini, bila aku masuk as new tenant, sapa yg jadi supplier gas and electricity kena notify aku by mail and then continue paying kan... tp ini dah sebulan yet nothing.pastu bila aku call... 15 minit okaih wa tunggu baru boleh ckp with human being..asik dengar blah3 robot je. demmit. ending dia, sbb lmbt sgt, kelas aku nak start dah, so aku ckp, i gonna call back coz u guys taken a longgggggggg time to answer me and i am gonna be late for my class.. so bye! sungguh tak berhasil.cis!

then, supposedly hari ni ada library training... so pegilah library..and venue change rupanya.cis! meraba la aku bersama 4 lagi classmate lain carik kelas training...wahahaha...nice day rite?


tp takpe..lepas kelas..aku shopping perfumes and make up di boots and get a nice choc fudge milkshake...then lepas tu boleh tahan handsome landlord dtg rumah, baiki apa patot..dia even ganti aku nyer shower hose... oh so sweetttttt.. ngiahahaha..

bye!

-diary bitch sy-

memories....

suddenly rasa cam nak nyanyi lagu ni....

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.


You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

hahaha...mesti korang rasa cam lawak gila xpasal2 nak Whitney Houston feeling jiwang..hahahaha..aku tengah layan cite gilmore girls all the way back...pastu came across lagu ni.... well.. in my past if u know me long enough, u would know how many bf aku ada...wakakaka..kalau nak tau precisely, boleh contact mira gedik. she can really count and spit out all their names exactly... tp kan... tu semua mcm zaman gedik lebih waktu muda2 yg x tau apa itu LOVE...mcm lah sekarang aku tau..it is still a mystery i cant solve...  but... utk seorang yg aku pernah syg. i guess org kata first love maybe? org tu dah kawen n beranak pinak dah... *so no issue here pehlis encik afiq :) as i hope u will be my last till i die.. :)*... tp u  know... first cut is the deepest... and only memories that stays alive...so yeah... bitter-sweet memories is all  i'm taking with me... we both know i am not what you need.. peh. dlm siot lyric tu...  so there goes my memories... as of coz once in a while...there is still time i still thinks of the bitter-sweet memories.. tp aku move on.. i got somebody else doing great job :)  we both move on.. sekali pon aku tak pernah menyesal..sbb kalau x kerana itu semua..aku takde afiq now kan?kan?

p/s: harpiq! kamu x jeles kan? i love u very much!!! skype jom!

oh oh

aku baru je on heater kat rumah ni.ntah la.aku on btol ke x, aku pon x tau...even dia ada mcm central controller ,aku mcm batak and dont understand a thing about it.hahahha..lantak..there is always first time for everything..

did i mention to u guys that balcony aku hadap jalan raya.so basically semua yg keluar masuk ke kawasan perumahan ni akan aku skodeng...hurm...

aku baru nmpak bebudak ccu keluar dr area ni. and it got me..

aku ni anti social ke? huhuhu... i am alone and of coz lonely... sobs..

mmglah aku ada skype and all cerita..tp seriusly...aku mcm lone ranger gila2...

hari tu aku nak keluar shopping di hari free from class...hati nak pegi ashford designer outlet..or primark kat folkstone or margate...tp the thoughts of me not knowing how to get back to canterbury, just drive me crazy.sobs. sedih kan life aku ni?so aku end up shopping online and lepas 2 hari tadaaaaaaaa.... i got my clothes.. tp....aku tau dlm hati aku,aku sedar aku makin tak adventures and sort of like big time loser.kesian aku kan? okay enough pity-ing urself ainul.sobs..

i guess... khamis ni, mmg aku akan pegi jugak..sorang2 pon sorang2 la.... plg busuk,aku amik teksi dan balik. atau aku akan nangis dulu sblum tnya org mcm mana nak balik ke canterbury balik.wish me luck in finding my courage will ya? thanks... :)

am i getting soft or what

hurm.sebelum ni aku mcm tak suka kalau afiq nk bawak parents dia jumpa parents aku. sbb aku slalu cuak kalau dorang discuss pasal kahwin and what not.. parents can be unpredictable rite... dahla mak aku slalu usik kalau org dtg minang, dia accept je.boleh x? huuuuu...

tp sekarang... hurm... i cannot see any harm if our parents meet and sembang.sembang apa, aku xnak imagine.. hohoho...i guess..smpai bila aku nak lari and elak.i have to accept the reality  rite?hehehe.lagipon mcm dah 23, terpaksa terima dah lepas usia remaja and a lot...means  A LOT of my frens dah selamat bernikah..so hormon gatai nak jgk!nak jgk!... dah bersepah jgk kawang2 aku dah ada anak..olololo...how sweet...

tp back to reality... well...kita kena ready mentally and financially..financially tu yg penting... dunia semakin mahal..maka aku jgk perlu korbankan sedikit keinginan utk berduet.lalalala..xpe... we fight till we can stand on our own feet..lepas  tu boleh kawen n makes babies...wahahaha... oh sadap... itu mmg mimpi semua org kan... so jgn suka sgt nak gelakkn aku...

tgk rate bercerai sekarang pon scary...sbb tu aku rasa mmg kiteorg perlukan keadaan yg kukuh supaya at least anything happen, we are at least prepared for it... i mean.. xkan nak kawen suka2..pastu tak pasal2 ada anak..padahal rumah ke apa takdok lagi..tak ke mcm, force to make plan... then anak itu mcm byk lg benda kau kena ada..so, pressure and stress pro long..jadi x fun..huhuhuhu....maka ramai yg end up berpisah..jadi, kita at least kena prepare utk benda2 yg mungkin terjadi....dan make sure we are prepare for it. mmglah, kadang2 tak semua benda yg jadi tu kita boleh predict..but hey, i did try to do something with something that i can forsee..kan?kan? at least less stress and pressure...

sapa nak kawen?angkat ketiak!!! hahahaha.... tp kita perlu kembali ke realiti sekarang...so now master, then keje, gimme 3 or 4 years,....then tunggu kad kawin aku ye..lalalalala...

yay! ini kami 4 thn lagi..insyaAllah

hand bouquet ini breath taking...just love the dull colours.. :) 

oh tuhan....ini mmg so gonna be my wedding dress!!!!!!!!!! sweet but elegant and simple... LOVE!

sweet yet simple and elegant cake is my taste. :)

gosh..lawa gila pelamin ni...

cute x future engagement outfit.... bukan putih of coz...tp same design... :)

-diari bitch sy- *take note afiq with my taste :P

the festival...

aku nak mama!

bangun pagi kaki aku dah mcm terseliuh gaya nya. dr malam semalam aku ngadu kat afiq sbnarnya kat area buku lali tu mcm sakit..tp jalan ape semua okay je...xde hal... alih2 bila bgn pagi tadi mcm nak menangis aku kaki sakit..sakit urat tu,kau tau lah kan camne hazab sakit dia.sobs. dlm kepala otak aku nk mintak tlg jiran dah ni kot2 dorang terer mengurut kan....sobss....

aku gigih jugalah mandi...mcm nak menangis panjat bath tub nak mandi.adoi maaaaaaaaaaaakkkkk.... pakai spender lg hazab okay... tu..nmpak gambar kat atas tu, kaki aku xleh gerak camtu.... kau bygkan mcm mana aku nk jalan.. huuuuu..apatah lg pakai spender dan pad dan seluar..kau bayangkan cpt! sedih okay... pastu gigih lagi lumur minyak angin kat kaki...

lepas beberapa puluh minit aku urut2, dah okay sket..dah boleh jalan..tp still.... sakit dia ada gak.. huhuhuhu.. nak mamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....!!


eh...baju shopping online dah dpt.bye!

-diari bitch sy-