again..i failed when it comes to expressing my feelings.

pagi tu... aku bgn. bukak letop. klik klik klik.. dem! result x kuar lg.

tido balik.

bgn lagi. klik klik klik.. dem! result x kuar lg...

tgk tivi..... boring2... bukak facebook... nmpak status "alhamdulillah..result dah keluar"

oooohoooo.. lari mcm xcukup tanah masuk bilik on letop. dem u internet. time ni la kau nk slow bagai.. hoih... sakit perut...nk muntah smua rasa.. wakakaka... serius nerves...

last2 try bukak pakai hp... jeng..jeng..jeng..dpt rupanya.. hiks.hiks.


pastu nk click button "achievement" oh... slow motion je scroll down... cuak bebeh... and aku hmpir explode bila.... alhamdulillah..semua lepas... so mcm biasa, calling2 mama... since masa tu tgh solat jumaat, aku text abah je pasal detail result....

then later ptg tu abah reply...

"alhamdulillah... tahniah... abah bangga dgn kakak"

aku terus... terkedu baca msg tu.. "abah bangga dgn kakak?" sobs..sobs... suddenly tears kat mata.. kenapa bangga? result tu x score pon... dean list jauh sekali... yet... he still find me anak yg boleh dibangga kan? sobs..sobs...

abah... sobs... jgnlah begitu.. sobs... terkedu n xreti nk respon apa... sobs..sobs... tears saje.. those words... sobs.... meaningful gila... after all of this aunties make me fell like i am the pain in the ass and all... with all the event yg menyakitkan hati on purpose by them.. when at one point i felt just like "fine.. i am useless..fuck off".. haaaa... huhuhuhu....

i luf u abah. sobs.sobs.sobs.