am i the selfish bitch?

aku n afiq plan nk jumpa kejap during lunch ahad ni....jumpa kejap je...sbb dia nk gi perak lak....dah berbulan tidak ketemu... hoih... i miss him so damn much.....dahla dia nk bg be-bear.... :)



last night, abah said sumting yg if i x akur, i am the bad person...

"****** tu dah jaga kak ngan abg dulu...xkan xmau balik...."(muka abah adalah garang)

bukan xmau balik...tp kl perlis is a long journey bah.... monday i keje...kita sure balik ahad....n of coz i wont let u drive if i am around... so... i will be driving kl- penang, penang -perlis, perlis -kl... omg.... letih yo.... everyday balik keje pun, pkul 9 dah tido (paling busuk pkul 10 aku tido).... oke.xada keje byk sgt smpai nk mati kat ofis...tp dunno why, balik ofis mesti letih gila lepas dah cook dinner....


plus....what make the difference? balik pun, i cant do anything to make things better. kita cuma boleh doa..which every single day i pray for all of u (especially makcik n pakcik yg took care of me and abg masa kecik).....i wont forget the love n kindness smpai mati.......


hoih... i knoe it sounds like i am a selfish bitch bila ckp xmau balik just becoz penat......



tp at last, i decided that i am going home to perlis with my parents.... not becoz of abah.... but becoz it occur to me that if any of my family member get sick, i surely need the support from people so called "family members"....

also...what abah said is true enough that during the time that mama abah xada when me and my bro kecik2 dulu, they voluntarily replace them for a while....

lastly becoz i don't think it seems proper either if i xbalik n pegi dating on sunday... haih.....


i am so sorry bie.....promise i will make it up for u nnt... :)